[Neferetβs POV]
His body is pressed against mine, his hands gliding over my bare skin with reverence, possession. His breath is warm against my ear, his lips whispering my name like a prayer only he is meant to speak.
βYou feel it, donβt you?β he murmurs, his voice thick with meaning. βThe way you belong to me. The way I belong to you.β
I do not resist. I should. I know I should. But there is something about himβhis touch, his presenceβthat pulls me under, drowns me willingly.
I am desperate to finally see his face, to understand why my dreams have belonged to him and not to the man I am meant to marry soon.
βYes, I do,β I whisper, and I really mean it.
His hands tighten around me, his lips tracing a path down my throat, over my shoulder and breasts, my stomach, lower and lowerβ
A sudden rush of heat floods my body, sharp and overwhelming. I arch against his mouth, a moan slipping from my lips.
But thenβa voice cuts through the haze.
"Lady Neferet!"
My eyes snap open.
I blink, trying to steady myself. The familiar face before me comes into focus β Pageti, my childhood friend, my most loyal servant. She is kneeling beside my bed, her brows furrowed in concern.
"You were trembling in your sleep," she said, voice soft but urgent. "And⦠breathing like you'd just run through the desert barefoot."
A deep flush crawls up my neck.
The dream. The way I moaned his name.
I press my hands to my burning face, mortified. "Iβ It was nothing. Just a dream."
Pageti does not look convinced. "The same dream with the stranger as always?"
I shake my head, hesitating. "No⦠not really. This time, it was different."
She tilts her head, waiting for me to explain.
The scent of freshly baked bread and honey lingers in the air as Pageti sets my breakfast tray before me.
"Well, you know how it usually goes," I murmur. "He's always standing thereβin the Nile, waiting for me. Beautiful and mysterious, yet Iβll never be able to remember his face. While kissing me, holding my hand behind my back to not let me touch. And when finally I reach for himβ¦"
"He disappears. Like mist in the water," Pageti finishes for me. She watches me closely, her dark eyes sharp with curiosity when I nod.
I sigh, staring down at my plate of fruit and flatbread, avoiding her gaze. "It felt⦠more real this time. And more⦠explicit."
A pause. ThenβPageti gasps, her hand flying to her mouth.
"Lady Neferet!" she whispers loudly, eyes wide. "Do you mean to tell me youβ" She lowers her voice, leaning in. "You actually dreamed of lying with him?"
The way she says it makes me feel even more ashamed. I groan, dropping my face into my hands once again. "Yes! And I wish I hadn't!"
Pageti stares at me for a long moment. Thenβshe laughs.
βWell,β she drawls, βthat certainly explains the way you were squirming in your sleep.β
I groan even louder, throwing a pillow at her. βPageti!β
She laughs, easily dodging it before perching on the edge of my bed, eyes still dancing with mischief.
βI just donβt understand why youβre so flustered. It's just a dream, it wasnβt real."
βBut it felt real,β I insist, looking up at her, my voice almost pleading. βMore real than theyβve ever been and should. And itβs wrong!β
Pagetiβs teasing softens into something more gentle. "Lady Neferet, you love Sahety. Youβre going to marry him. One dream does not change any of that."
"Then why would I dream of another man?" I press, frustrated. "A stranger?"
Pageti shrugs. "Perhaps your mind is restless. Or perhaps," she smirks, "you simply long for what you cannot have until your wedding night."
I gasp, swatting at her arm. She laughs again, dodging my weak attempt at a scolding.
"Iβm just saying! Youβve waited so long for Sahety, and heβs been away for moons. Maybe your heart is tired of waiting."
The words settle uncomfortably in my chest.
It is true that I have waited. I have loved Sahety for years. I asked for him. I chose him. So why does it feel like something is wrong?
I shake my head, forcing the thought away. "It doesnβt matter. I will forget about it."
"Good.β Pageti nods, satisfied. βBecause youβll be too busy preparing for the festival of Isis to think about dreams anyway."
"Youβre right.β I exhale, finally taking a sip of my water. βAnd besidesβ¦ Sahety is coming home soon."
"Yes.β Pageti smiles. βSoon, youβll be his wife. And everything will fall into place."
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Sahety returns the next morning. I rush to meet him, my sandals barely skimming the stone floor. My heart pounds in my chest, the joy of seeing him again overwhelming everything else.
"Sahety!" I call out, breathless.
He turns at the sound of my voice, his expression shifting into something unreadable before he smilesβsoft, polite, distant.
"Neferet," he greets, his tone steady.
"You're home.β I throw my arms around his neck, pressing into his warmth. βFinally, you're home."
His arms fold around me, hesitant, as if unsure what to do with them. When I tilt my face up, expecting a kiss, he only presses his lips to my forehead.
I frown. "Iβve missed you."
A pause. "And I, you," he says. But the words feel empty.
I tell myself it's just his exhaustion. That he is simply weary from his long journey, that he needs time.
But as the days pass, the distance does not fade.
At dinner, Sahety sits near me, but his attention is fixed on my father.
βThe guest list must be revised,β he says, absently rolling a date between his fingers. βWe cannot afford to host half of Thebes.β
Father nods in agreement. βIndeed. A more modest celebration would be wiser.β
I glance between them. This is all they talk about.
I reach for Sahetyβs hand beneath the table, squeezing it. "The festival is tomorrow. We could go together, just the two of us, before the ceremony."
Sahety hesitates, barely squeezing back before slipping his hand away. βThere is still much to do. The priest must approve our offerings, and my men require my presence."
I bite my lip. "A short visit? Just for an evening?"
His expression tightens, but he forces a smile. "We'll see."
Pageti catches my eye from across the room. Her brow furrows. She notices it too.
Something about him seems off.
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Pageti works quickly and efficiently, weaving strands of gold beads into my dark hair, her fingers nimble yet gentle.
βYouβre quiet tonight,β she said, glancing at me through the polished bronze mirror. βThe festival of Isis is usually your favorite night of the year.β
I forced a small smile. βIt is.β
Pageti arched her brow. βThen why do you look like youβre being prepared for your own burial?β
I hesitated, fingers tightening around my lap. βItβs justβ¦ I still feel uneasy about that dream.β
Pageti scoffed, rolling her eyes. βGods forbid a woman have a dream that actually excites her.β
I shot her a look. βPageti.β
βIt was just a dream,β she laughed, placing a comforting hand on my shoulder, βYour mind is playing tricks on you becauseββ she hesitated, then continued carefully, ββbecause maybe youβre nervous about the wedding.β
I glanced up at her, uncertain. βYou think thatβs all it is?β
βWellβ¦β she hesitated again, then pursed her lips. βThat, or maybe itβs something else.β
I narrowed my eyes. βPageti.β
βAlright,β she sighed. βI wasnβt going to bring this up, butβ¦ youβre not the only one whoβs noticed that Sahetyβs been acting strange.β
My stomach clenched. βWhat do you mean?β
She adjusted the drape of my dress, focusing on the folds as she spoke. βThe servants have been talking. He barely speaks to you, never touches you. And theyβve noticed something else too.β
I waited, heart pounding. βWhat?β
Pageti hesitated, as if debating whether to say it. βThat he lets Kiya, our younger lady, your sister, hang all over him.β
I froze. Then I laughed, shaking my head. βPageti, thatβs ridiculous.β
She crossed her arms. βIs it?β
βYes,β I insisted. βKiya has never cared for men like that. Sheβs always been more interested in sneaking out, getting into trouble, climbing rooftops like a wild cat. She doesnβt throw herself at anyoneβespecially not my betrothed.β
Pageti shrugged. βIβm just saying, thatβs what people have noticed.β
βItβs just gossip.β I waved a hand dismissively, forcing a laugh I didnβt quite feel. βMeaningless.β
Pagetiβs expression remained neutral, but she didnβt argue further.
Still, as I stood and smoothed the fabric of my gown, I couldnβt quite shake the unease creeping into my chest.
* * *
Kiya stretches her arms above her head, her golden bangles clinking as she spins toward me.
βTell me, Neferet, isnβt it perfect?β She breathes in deeply, eyes glinting in the torchlight. βThe whole city feels like itβs alive tonight.β
I nod, managing a small smile. βIt does.β
Kiya eyes me for a beat before nudging my shoulder with hers. βThen why do you sound soβ¦ solemn? Youβve been waiting for this night.β
βIβm not solemn,β I lie, smoothing down the embroidered fabric of my dress.
She huffs. βYou are the worst liar I know.β
Before I can answer, she hooks her arm through Sahetyβs, pulling him close. βAnd you? Have you missed Thebes?β
He glances down at her, then at me, his expression unreadable for just a moment. Then, he smilesβsmall, but real.
βI have,β he admits, his voice softer than usual. Something in me loosens, just a little.
βYou should be excited,β I tell him, threading my fingers through his. βYouβve missed so many festivals. This one should feel special.β
He doesnβt pull away this time. Instead, his thumb brushes lightly over my knuckles. βIt is special.β
It should be reassuring. But something about the way he says it unsettles me.
Kiya sighs dramatically. βGods above, can you both stop staring into each otherβs eyes for one moment?β She tugs Sahety toward a merchantβs stall, her smile playful. βCome, you must see these.β
She doesnβt let go of his arm. I expect him to pull backβto remind her that Iβm standing right here. But he doesnβt.
βLook at these,β Kiya says, tracing a row of silver charms with her fingertips. βArenβt they beautiful?β
Sahety glances at the jewelry, but his gaze flickers back toward me.
βNeferet, do you want one?β he asks, his voice kind, thoughtful.
I should be relieved that heβs thinking of me. Instead, I feel cold.
I force a smile. βNo. The ring you gave me is enough.β I lift my hand to show him, the ruby catching the light.
Sahety watches me carefully, his expression unreadable again. Then, finally, he smiles again, squeezing my fingers briefly before letting go.
I stand frozen, watching themβwatching how easily she takes his attention.
A sharp voice cuts into my thoughts. βMy lady, are you interested in something?β
I blink, realizing the merchant is staring at me, expecting an answer. I shake my head. βNo, I was justββ
But when I look back toward them, theyβre gone.
My heart drops. I turn sharply, pushing past the crowd, trying to catch sight of them again.
βKiya?β I call, rising on my toes. βSahety?β
No response.
I push through the festival-goers, trying to find her, but insteadβI collide into someone solid, steady hands catching my shoulders to keep me from falling. I look up and my breath catches.
He's so⦠beautiful.
For a moment, I forgot my purpose, caught in the quiet magnetism of his presence.
"My apologies," I stammer, stepping back.
"No harm done." His voice is rich, cultured. There was a hint of amusement in his tone as he added, βThough it isnβt every day that one meets a priestess of Isis. Especially in such a setting.β
I blinked, startled by his observation. βHow did you know?β
He gestured toward the small amulet hanging from a delicate golden chain around my neck.
βA sacred symbol,β he said. βAnd one that suits you well. Tell me, do all priestesses possess such remarkable eyes?β
Heat creeps up my neck. Despite that Iβve just chuckled. "A mark of goddesses blessing, or so they say."
βThe color is very unusual.β He smiled, tilting his head as if to better study me. βNever seen something like that before. Like the depths of the Nile at dusk. Itβs quiteβ¦ striking.β
I looked away, flustered by his compliment. βYouβre kind to say so.β
We fell into an easy conversation, speaking of the festival, the city, and the beauty of the evening. The way he looks at me makes my stomach tighten. I do not know this man. And yet⦠I feel as though I do.
Oh, dear goddesses, I should leave.
"Actually," I said quickly. βI must to find my sisterβ
"Of course. But before you goβ" He reaches for the merchant's stall beside him, lifting a delicate gold bracelet inlaid with emeralds. "Allow me to offer this to you."
I shake my head. "Oh, noβ I couldn't possiblyβ"
"Please," he interrupts smoothly, already pressing coins into the merchant's hands. "Consider it⦠as an offering to Isis herself, through her lovely servant."
Something stirs in my chest as he fastens it around my wrist. His touch lingersβjust for a moment. Then, he is gone.
And I am left, standing in the middle of the festival, my breath shallow, my heart racing for reasons I do not understand.
The noise of the festival fades as I reach the banks of the Nile, my mind spinning with too many thoughts.
As I stood in silence, looking for Kiya, a faint sound reached my ears. A soft moan carried on the evening breeze.
I freeze, embarrassment flooding my cheeks. Some couples have clearly found privacy among the river reeds. I should leave them to it, and return to searching the market.
But right then I hear my sister's voice calling: "Oh, Sahety⦠Ah! Please, make me⦠Yes, more-e!"
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My legs move without my permission, carrying me closer to the thick stand of reeds.
No. It cannot be. I must have misheard.
But the gods are not merciful tonight. Because when I step forwardβwhen I push apart the reeds, just enough to seeβthere they are.
Tangled together in the growing darkness. My sister's perfect body arches beneath my betrothed, her fingers digging into his shoulders. Sahety's face is buried in her neck, his military belt discarded in the sand beside them.
I can't breathe. Can't move. Can't make a sound.
Kiya's eyes open, meeting mine over Sahety's shoulder. There's no shock in her expression, no shame. Only a sinister smile that curves her lips as she pulls him into a deep possessive kiss.
Right in front of me. And Sahetyβmy Sahetyβlets her.
He had returned and said nothing. He had returned and chosen her instead.
When Kiya breaks the kiss, her eyes are still locked with mine, and whispers something in Sahety's ear. He stiffens, starting to turnβ
I ran.
I run until my lungs burn and my vision blurs, not caring where my feet take me.
When I finally stop, the temple of Isis looms before me, silver in the moonlight. I fell to my knees before the altar, my cries echoing in the vast chamber.
The tears come hot and fast now. I press my face against the temple's cool stone, letting sobs and loud cries wrack my body. And then the lightest touch on my shoulder made me freeze.
My heart leapt into my throat, and I spun around with my fists raised, a scream escaping my lips before I could stop it.
βPeace, young lady,β a calm, familiar voice said. βIt is only me.β
Panic inside me ebbed as I recognized the man standing before me.
The stranger from the market.
His face, partially obscured by the shawl earlier, was now fully visible in the moonlight. His long black hair was braided into a single sleek braid, hung loose, framing a face that was both captivating and refined.
βYou!β I said, my voice trembling. βWhat are you doing here?β
"Forgive me," he says softly. "I didn't mean to frighten you."
"Howβ¦β Cheeks burning like torch lights, heart thunders against my ribs. "Why did you come here?"
"I was nearby and heard someone crying." He steps closer, silverlight catching in his dark eyes. "Could not ignore suchβ¦ sorrow.β
βYou should not be here.β I turned away, ashamed of my tears and vulnerability. βThis is a sacred place.β
βI mean no disrespect to the goddess,β he said gently. βBut it seems to me that you are the one in need of comfort tonight. What happened to you?β
His words broke through the fragile walls I had built around my pain, shattering them with a quiet intensity. My lips trembled as I began to speak, and once the words started, they came in an unstoppable torrent.
Through it all, he listens with an intensity that makes my skin tingle. Without interruption, his expression was thoughtful and kind. When I finished, he knelt beside me, his presence steady and reassuring.
βYou carry a great burden,β he said softly. βBut you must not let their betrayal define you. You are worth far more than their lies and selfishness.β
These words touched something deep within me, even made me feel a glimmer of hope for some moment.
βThank you,β I said, my voice barely above a whisper. I wipe my eyes, suddenly conscious of how I must look. "I don't even know your name."
"Amenβ¦" He began without thinking and then abruptly stopped talking.
While settled beside me on the temple steps, he just smiled sweetly, but the smile did not reach his eyes.
βAmen?β I repeated his words.
βYes, Amen.β He smiled once again, with a hint of mystery in his eyes. βWhat is your name, young lady? Or perhaps you prefer the way what I call you?β
A small smile appeared on my face and simply answered, βNeferet.β
βAh, βbeautifulβ.β He stretched out the meaning of my name like it was a compliment, savoring every sound of it with the same smile on his lips.
βThank you, Amen,β I couldn't help myself, but continuing his little joke, βyour name also sounds very... βcertainβ.β
In response to this, he just laughed sincerely, his voice low and captivating, with a rich timbre that resonated deeply.
"Tell me about your service to Isis," he said calmly.
There's something comforting about his presence, like a familiar dream I can't quite remember.
Reluctantly, I allowed him to steer the conversation elsewhere. I found myself leaning into his presence, not just hearing but feeling every word he spoke, as though he were filling spaces I hadnβt realized were empty.
We talk through the night. About everything and nothing. About dreams and destiny and the weight of family expectations. He never touches me, but his presence fills all the empty spaces my pain has carved out.
The sky begins to lighten, dawn approaches like an inescapable truth. I turned to Amen, reluctant to see our time together come to an end.
βWill I see you again?β I asked, my voice tentative. βI haveβ¦ enjoyed your company more than I can say.β
Amen's expression shadows, he hesitated. βIt is unlikely,β he said at last. βThe gods weave our fates in ways we cannot predict. But I will cherish this night, as I hope you will.β
My heart sinks, but another emotion rises when I see him standing up β reckless, desperate. A pang of sadness tightened my chest.
βThen may I ask for one favor before you go?β
βAnything,β he said, his tone sincere.
βA kiss,β I said, the words tumbling out before I could second-guess them. βA kiss for goodbye. Perhaps it will help mend my heart and serve asβ¦ a small revenge for the betrayal I endured.β
Something dangerous flashes in his eyes. He studies me for a long moment, then slowly reaches out to trace my cheek with one finger.
"Are you sure that is wise?"
"No." I lean into his touch. "But I don't want to be wise right now."
The first brush of his lips is gentle, tentative. But then β goddesses help me β he parted my lips with his hot tongue and the world exploded into fire. His hand tangles in my hair, pulling me closer. My fingers clutch at his shoulders, feeling solid muscle beneath heated skin.
Then Amen deepened our kiss and laid me down on the stone floor of the temple, hovering over me in a predatory manner. My breath caught in my throat from the sudden tension that gathered in my stomach.
This is like being devoured by flame, like drowning in sweet wine. This is...
He pulls back suddenly, holding me almost at arm's length. His breathing is ragged, eyes dark with something that makes my whole body tremble.
"If you keep looking at me like that," he says roughly, "if you lean toward me again... I'll have no choice but to find you and finish what we've started."
Speechless, I cannot respond and just keep opening my mouth to try to find a word, when he stands and steps away.
"May the gods bless you, sweet lotus flower. May you find the happiness you deserve."
Then he's gone, leaving me breathless and burning on the temple steps.
Wait, did he just called me a βsweet lotus floββ
A noise from behind the temple snaps me back to reality. I rise on shaky legs to investigate, though every part of me screams to run after Amen instead.
My heart stops. Kiya stands in the shadows, her perfect face twisted in a smirk.
I turn away, unable to look at her, and start walking home. But her quick footsteps follow.
"My, my, sister." Her voice drips honey-sweet poison. "What would Father say if he knew his pious daughter was kissing a stranger at the temple?"
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