Before You Knew My Name by Nina Soelian
Before You Knew My Name
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Summer is used to being invisible-the quiet girl in the hallway, the nobody her brother's best friend bothered to look at. She survived high school by shrinking, by enduring, by loving Jay Callahan from the shadows while he walked past her like she was furniture. Now twenty-four and unrecognizable from the girl she used to be, Summer is building a new life as a medical intern-and navigating a secret affair with her mentor, the brilliant Dr. Xavier Hale. He's everything her absent father wasn't: steady, protective, certain. With him, she finally feels safe. Chosen. Then Jay Callahan wheels into her ER after a brutal injury and looks at her like she's worth remembering. He's charming, relentless, and completely unaware of who she really is.
Chapter 1
Mar 30, 2026
Summer’s POV
"That dosage could have killed him!"
Dr. Palmer's voice had that special megaphone quality. It could cut through a crowded hospital corridor and make every head swivel. Like we were all extras in a medical drama and someone had just yelled "Action!"
Except instead of dramatic life-saving, it was my public roasting. Fun times.
The kicker? My dosage adjustment was perfect.
But Dr. Palmer just hadn't bothered to look at this morning's bloodwork. She just decided to make me her sacrificial intern lamb.
I kept my face carefully blank, hands at my sides, nails digging crescents into my palms hard enough to leave marks. The instinct to apologize crawled up my throat. To make myself smaller, quieter, easier to dismiss.
"I expected better from someone with your academic record." Her voice went even louder. "Clearly your grades don't translate to actual clinical competence—"
"Dr. Palmer."
Xavier's voice suddenly cut through my public humiliation like a scalpel through infected tissue.
He appeared beside us with timing so perfect it belonged in a Netflix rom-com. Tall and composed, white coat so pristine it looked Photoshopped on him.
At thirty-six, my internship mentor Dr. Xavier Hale had achieved impossible. The thing where he looked like a real Chief Resident but also like he'd just walked off a "Sexiest Physicians Alive" magazine cover, that definitely didn't exist but absolutely should.
I haven’t seen him for two weeks and let my eyes linger on him for a moment.
His light brown skin seemed to catch the harsh hospital lighting and make it softer somehow, warmer. Close-cropped hair, clean-shaven jaw sharp enough to cut, cheekbones that belonged in portraits rather than corridors.
And those eyes… Deep-set, dark and holding the kind of intelligence that missed nothing and forgave less. That still makes my heart skip a beat.
"Dr. Hale." Palmer recovered, but I caught the micro-expression that flashed across her face. The brief, beautiful moment of ‘oh shit.’ "I was just reviewing the Thompson case with your intern. The dosage modification she ordered…"
"Was appropriate for the patient's renal function, which I reviewed personally before approving the adjustment this morning."
Xavier's tone could have flash-frozen hell.
"If you'd consulted the updated labs rather than yesterday's panel, you'd have seen the creatinine levels that necessitated the change. Dr. Ellis demonstrated exactly the kind of critical thinking we expect from our top interns."
The silence that followed was so complete you could have heard a pin drop in the parking garage. He shifted closer to me—close enough that my entire nervous system started sending up flares.
"I see." Palmers's jaw worked around words. "I was clearly working with incomplete information."
"Clearly," he smiled coldly.
She turned and walked away and the corridor slowly resumed normal function, but I caught at least five people trying not to stare while absolutely staring.
I couldn't move, couldn't stop staring at Xavier's profile. The controlled set of his shoulders, the calm certainty in every line of his body. The way reality seemed to reorganize itself around his composure.
Is it even possible to fall for this man harder than I already am?
Heat coiled low in my stomach—familiar, dangerous and completely inappropriate for a hospital corridor or toward my literal boss.
"My office," he said quietly, already turning. "Now."
I followed because I always followed. That was its own problem, but it wasn't a problem I was solving today.
His office door clicked shut behind us, and he moved to the blinds—one smooth pull, and the corridor disappearing. Just the two of us and fourteen days of absence sitting between us like a third person.
I filled the silence the only way I knew how.
"She hadn't even opened today's chart." The words came out faster than I meant them to. "I checked three times. I cross-referenced everything, I ran the calculation twice before I even wrote the order—and she just assumed—"
"Summer."
"I'm not spiraling, I'm debriefing. Those are different things." I crossed my arms, turned to face him, and stopped.
He walked toward me slowly and I held my ground for exactly four steps before the desk edge caught the backs of my thighs and I ran out of room to retreat.
"You did everything right," he said, low and even. "You don't need me to tell you that."
"I know." My voice came out smaller than I intended. "I just… It's easier when you do."
Something shifted in his expression, quiet and dangerous and entirely directed at me, as he took my face in his hands.
"God, I missed you, sunshine…" he said quietly and then kissed me before I could answer.
Gentle hands tilted my face up to meet him, and for a second I forgot entirely that I was in a hospital, at work. That there were people twelve feet away on the other side of that door. That there are approximately eight hundred reasons why this was complicated.
His mouth was warm and unhurried and I kissed him back as eagerly. Six months of hidden longing and secret relationship does something to a person's restraint apparently.
"I stared at my phone like a complete idiot every night…" I admitted against his lips.
A sound escaped him—low, half-laugh and half-something else—and he kissed me again before I could be embarrassed about that. His thumbs traced my cheekbones, fingers threaded into my hair, and I gripped the lapels of his coat because the alternative was sliding straight off the desk.
"I wanted to call," he murmured, forehead dropping to mine. "Every night. I sat through networking dinners thinking about nothing but…"
"Why didn't you?"
"Because I won't be careless with this." The words came out quiet and absolute. "With you… I won't risk it."
I knew what he meant. Call logs. Patterns. The particular kind of attention that attached itself to things people wanted to keep private. He was careful because I mattered. I knew that. I knew that.
Didn't stop the small, familiar ache of it. "Two weeks is a long time," I said.
"I know." His mouth curved against my temple. "I'm making it up to you."
He trailed kisses from my cheeks down my jaw and settled on my neck, hot lips against my skin. When his thigh slides between my legs, I barely back down the moan and need to grind down against it as a horny teenager.
While one his hand stayed at my face and taking more access to my neck, the other one moved to my waist, getting under my shirt and pulling me closer, and I stopped thinking about call logs and careful and all the rational things I was supposed to be prioritizing—
The intercom shattered the moment like a dropped tray: "Dr. Hale, VIP patient, trauma incoming from tonight's game. ER is requesting senior staff immediately."
Xavier exhaled heavily against my skin and reluctantly stepped back first, always the one to recover faster. He smoothed his hair, adjusted his coat.
By the time he turned around, he was Dr. Hale again—untouchable, unreachable, mine only in secret.
"We'll continue this later," he said gently, giving me a small smile.
We moved through the corridors in professional tandem—appropriate distance, appropriate expressions, the practiced performance of colleagues. Nothing more. I focused on slowing my pulse back to something that wouldn't show on a monitor.
The ER doors swung open, and I moved into position. Then I saw who was on the gurney, and every carefully reconstructed professional wall just… fell.
Jay Callahan.
My brother's best friend. His teammate. The boy I'd loved the way only invisible girls could love golden boys—desperately and silently. With the kind of devotion that expected nothing in return because I knew I deserved nothing back then.
He'd been sunlight, and I'd been a shadow.
And shadows don't get to touch the sun.
"Well, if I'd known the medical staff looked like this, I'd have gotten injured a lot sooner." Jay tried to shift on the gurney, winced. "At least the view's good."
Something cracked inside my chest. A fissure running through years of carefully buried feelings, years of convincing myself I was over him.
That the desperate first love had died with the girl I used to be.
"Still flirting through a crisis, Callahan?" The words came out sharper than I intended. "Some things never change."
His expression shifted and the charm flickered, replaced by something that looked almost like recognition but not quite. He looked at the badge with my name on my coat, then at my face and his brow furrowed. Familiar blue-green eyes narrowing as they traced my features intensively.
Does he still remember that my brother and I have different last names?
Would he be impressed by my glow up since high school?
I was not, to put it diplomatically, a late bloomer. I was a no bloomer. Until approximately age nineteen, when my body apparently decided to read the room and catch up with some urgency.
He is different now too—jaw sharper, shoulders broader, the boyish prettiness hardened into something more devastating. But the cocky grin was the same, even twisted with pain, even pale beneath the harsh fluorescent lights.
"Wait." He tried to push himself up, and two nurses converged to stop him. "Hold on… Do we know each other?”
My stomach dropped approximately to level -1 parking.
Four years.
Four damn years of existing in his orbit, of watching him from across the table at our house for dinners after hockey games, of him being everywhere my brother was, with me including… And he didn't remember me. At all.
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